¨Do not let your adornment be merely outward ,arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel, rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God.¨
In these two photo´s, one part of my face is with make-up and the other part is without any make-up.
A little project I wanted to do, because I have been meditating on this subject the last week. I have always been fascinated with people´s faces. I love to get to know the character, but even more the story behind it!
When I was small I always loved to visit with my mother the (La Place) Restaurant in the city where I was born. It was on the third floor, and looked out over the whole shopping street. I could secretly spy on people, and imagine what kind of persons they were. A grumpy old man without a wife to cheer him up or a silly teenage boy trying to impress his friends...
When I just became a teen, the interest in people developed in adoring popstars who once were just like me. In my teen years, I started (like every young girl) noticing myself. At the age of 16 I had collected tons of magazines with pretty woman in pretty clothes and my ultimate wish was to be like them. Watching video clips where girls would be half-naked made me look at myself. Subconscious thoughts went through my mind, I am not like them, am I boring? Am I not significant? I started wearing way to tight jeans, make-up, hair had to be long and straight.. which led to a lot of things I wanted.
At the age of 18 something in my life happened that forced me to step back for a while from my life. And in a split of a second I felt so naked. I longed back to be ..me. I longed back to be valued for who I am, not how I look. I longed for not wasting all my time for how I look, but rather for somebody to see the hidden person of the heart.
Who decides that blond is better than brown? That straight is better than curly hair. That extrasmall is how everybody should be..? Who is anybody to decide how you should look? Who can define beauty?
Now.. what I am trying to say is not that you should not wear make-up, tight jeans or even look great in nice clothes! Not at all because, I still want to look nice and fresh. My point is.. am I fooling people when I spent all my time looking different than my natural me? Can I stand in life satisfied of who I am, even without all the extra´s?